People keep a diary. I don’t always, because it’s hard to keep up, and frankly, some days, I don’t even feel like writing…

Writing my thoughts, emotions and feelings down becomes a chore that I just won’t do. No matter how much time I have, I just won’t go through with it because the energy it takes for me to put pen to paper just isn’t there.

The thing about writing it down is, it’s there permanently. Sure, you can burn/tear the page, but it was still written.

I don’t want to write emotions and feelings down, because they’ll become all too real. Typing, ironically, is easy. But, writing with pen on paper is difficult – because it’s tangible.

The, I guess – great thing – about the mind is that you can be and do anything with it. So, straight after a negative thought, you can replace it with a good one. But, as soon as we put pen to paper, that negative thought becomes permanent. This might sound really weird, that’s fine. I can live with being weird. I’ve been that way for as long as I’ve lived, and I don’t foresee a change in which I’ll stop being weird anytime soon, which is a shame. Normal seems fun.

Anyway, I’ve been in a good place recently, so I’ve been getting back into keeping a diary… Sort of.

However, the original purpose of this post (before we got deeper than the Great Barrier Reef), was to introduce you to a new type of diary – maybe one you haven’t heard of before, a ‘5 year diary’.

I bought this from a church I used to attend, and I absolutely love the sentiment behind it. For me, it suggests having a long-term goal and keeping tabs on its progress. A five-year plan. We’ve all had our fair share of five year plans, I know I have. None worked out. But, there’s something about writing it down, hiding it away and then looking back on it, that really works. This was something one of my most dearly beloved teachers taught me at school.

Writing down a goal. Folding it up. Putting it in a drawer. Time and date it. Set a time and date to check it. Then, look back at it (if you remember to). You’ll either be closer to the goal or right there, depending on how hard you’ve worked.

Anyway, I have a 5 year diary, and for me, the pages are pretty blank right now.

To be honest, I haven’t really started using it yet – but I will soon. I wanted to start it in a new decade, so I can analyse the things I’ve achieved by mid-decade. Therefore, 2020 will be the year that I officially start writing in it.

What will I write about?

Happy, excited, calm, content and peaceful emotions. As I said above, I don’t ever write down the negative ones, because I, like everyone else, just want to forget them.

I will also be attempting to do one new thing each day – whether that’s make a new friend, a random act of kindness, or pushing myself out of my comfort zone and trying a new hobby/skill etc.

If you followed me on Twitter, you’ll know that I decided to start setting myself long/short term goals of things I’d want to achieve each month in the lead up to the New Year. I’ve joint a choir, done a pilgrimage and even started volunteering. All these things really give life more of a meaning. The goal by end of August is to achieve and reach a personal milestone.

What should you take with you from this post, (if you want to take anything at all)?

Try to keep a diary, or even consider setting short/long term goals for yourself that are achievable (in the time frame you give yourself- i.e. a month, a week, a day, a year).

Remember: don’t give up. If you can’t reach it this time around, you’ll definitely be able to next time. Circumstances delay us, but the delays only lead to detours and a sweeter arrival to the destination.