Hello. I’m blogging because I’ve been in a very reflective mood of late… In case you’ve missed it, today, I turned 28.
This blog post has been a long time in the making, I actually drafted it last month and didn’t publish it until today, to mark the occasion.
Let me start by listing 28 things I love about myself… I’ve learned that in life, unless you love yourself first, it’s impossible for anyone else to love you. People can admire us, be fond of us, but if we sell ourselves short and undersell ourselves, we won’t be taken seriously.
1) I love my personality
I’m crazy. I’m unique. I’m authentic. I’m myself. I have never tried to be anyone else, even though I’ve been misunderstood, undervalued, underestimated and been an outcast. I’ve spent enough years in my own company to realise that at some stage, I will meet people exactly like me. Or, at least, people who accept my level of crazy.
2) I love my honesty
I am very transparent. I will always put my hands up, and be the first to admit defeat. If I cannot be honest, I am not being true to myself.
3) I love my weaknesses & flaws
This has taken a long time… I spent many, many years disliking myself and the things that made me feel weak. I realised that disliking myself wasn’t doing me any favours. The only thing that would, is challenging these weaknesses and trying to make them a strength. If I failed at that, at least I’d tried.
4) I love my eyes
Eyes are the window to the soul. I’d hope that my soul is one of good. I love Thomas Edison enough for it (my soul) to be lit like Diwali.
5) I love my smile
As corny as this is, I love my smile. The reason? I’ve smiled at times when all I’ve wanted to do is cry – and it’s led me to actually feeling a little better.
6) I love my laugh
When I really, really, laugh… It’s silent. I feel winded afterwards. Laughter is a sign of great times.
7) I love my energy
People who know me personally have told me time and time again that my energy is “infectious”, so – if you want to be around me, make sure you’ve been vaccinated.
8) I love my talents
I don’t have many talents, but the ones I’m blessed with – I love and nurture. I sing and I write. They’re the two talents of mine that I really practice.
9) I love my strengths
My strengths are what make me, me. In the same way that my weaknesses do, my strengths are the stuff that have brought me to being the person I am today. I rely on my strengths a lot more when I’m feeling weak.
10) I love my passion
11) I love my determination
I don’t give up unless something is out of my control.
12) I love my faith
This is number one. But, I’ve put it here because this is in no way chronological. “Let go and let God”.
13) I love my imagination
I’m creative and I’m vivid in my imagination. I believe my imagination knows no bounds.
14) I love my forward-thinking
So, while you all are in 2019, I’m in 2022. That helps and hinders… If my plans don’t go my way, hindrance… If they do? Boom. I dreamt it, now it’s time to live it.
15) I love my quick-wit
Fast and humorous.
16) I love my Sims
Some think the first step to starting a family is owning a pet, wrong. The first step to starting a family is playing Sims and building one. Virtual reality ain’t called “virtual reality” for nothing!
17) I love my optimism
I’m very optimistic. Some would call me a ‘dreamer’, in fact… Scrap that. Most would. But the reality is this: 96% of the things I’ve dreamt have become a reality – timing is of the essence.
18) I love my ability to learn quickly
My learning is as quick as my wit in most cases… There’s some lessons I’ve taken a longer while to learn, but for the most part, I’m quick.
19) I love my tenacity
I suffer from anxiety and depression in my own way, but I’ve never let my depression and anxiety stop me from putting myself out there if it’s something I truly, truly want. The way I think of things is this: “if you want something you’ve never had, you’ll have to do something you’ve never done.” Nothing great ever came from comfort zones. The anxiety, tension and stress you’ll feel when you rip the band-aid off is short-lived when compared with the length of time we’ve spent agonising about the anxiety, depression and tension we’ll feel when ripping it off. Not everyone has that, and I’m beginning to understand that.
20) I love how I’ve grown
I’ve come along way from what I used to be like… I never used to understand others, but I realised that the reason for this was because I didn’t understand myself. This is key. Understand to be understood. Listen to be listened to. Love to be loved. I used to think everyone’s minds and hearts worked like mine. The beauty of life is that we’re all different. I no longer spend my time expecting too much from people, because there’s things I can’t give people – in the exact same way there’s stuff they can’t give me. Accept what you are given, don’t think about what you’re not.
21) I love who I’m becoming
I’m becoming Kate Middleton.
22) I love my experiences
You have to be okay with your past in order to better your present and improve your future. I’ve finally come to terms, to the best of my ability, with my past. I no longer resent anything and I am no longer a victim.
23) I love my fashion-sense
I’m a bit quirky with my fashion sense. I love clothes. I love sneakers. I actually bought a Christian Louboutain sneaker because I can’t wear high-heels and I do not conform to the ‘women wear stilettos’ stereotype.
24) I love how close I’m getting to the 28th thing I love
Yeah, no – but seriously… I love that I’m now 28. I’ve wanted to grow up since I was little. I don’t think anyone understood me, but I’ve always wanted to be in mature people’s company. When I was growing up, I had more friends in the teachers than I did my peers. Growing up, I felt more mature than my classmates in most things – bar my humour.
25) I love maths but unable to do long multiplications
Fact. I am the weirdest person for loving things I can’t do… Another thing to include in this list is: dancing.
26) I love my love of animals
Giraffes specifically. Also, growing up, I used to have an insect hospital, where I used to help bees fly by putting a mixture of sugar and water on a spoon. I also used to collect Daddy Long Legs and let them fly around the assembly hall scaring everyone. Nowadays, I just let spiders sleep in my room and evacuate to the sofa in the living room. They’re web developers, so they earn and pay their way.
27) I love my sneakers & boots collection
This is more about how I’ve earned the luxury goods I own. Every time I open a box of my favourite sneakers that I’ve probably never worn, I think of the hard work I put in to get it. That’s life. You get out what you put in. I only have the luxuries I have because I’ve worked darn hard to earn them. I’ve forever been that way and will continue forevermore.
28) I love being blessed
I’m blessed and that is a blessing.
Now, let’s move on to things I’m grateful for… This will go quicker, I promise.
5) A roof over my head
6) My talents (already mentioned above)
7) My strengths (same)
8) My weaknesses (same) – if we didn’t have weaknesses, we wouldn’t recognise our strengths
9) My good days
10) My bad days (same) – if we didn’t have bad days, we wouldn’t know what good ones felt like
11) My education
12) My accomplishments
13) My life-experiences (even though I’m 28, I’ve experienced a lot already. Obviously, there will always be someone who’s experienced more than us, but it’s a blessing to have experienced this much – it makes me resilient)
14) My ability to count (because: this post)
15) Pets (our neighbours’ cats and friends’ adorable doggos)
16) My talents
17) People who believe in me
18) People who are patient with me at times when, if the shoe was on the other foot, I’d have struggled. (I’m a handful, and I know and am changing that)
19) The people who refuse to give up on me
20) The people who understand me and understood me in times when I didn’t even understand myself
21) Lessons I’ve learned
22) Bubbles that have been burst (in life, we have to take the rough with the smooth)
23) Health (good health is wealth)
24) Mastering the act of gratitude. (If I hadn’t had mastered the act of gratitude, I wouldn’t have all these things to be grateful for)
25) I’m grateful for the love I’ve received
26) I’m grateful for the constructive criticism that I’ve received
27) I’m grateful for the things I have and the things I don’t, the things I will and the things I won’t – because life is ours, and it’s what we make of it
28) You. I’m grateful for you. Always